In Heaven and on Earth.

I so wish in Heaven everyone looks at people the same. fat or skinny or black white or chineese what ever you must be that everyone is uplifting and happy! though God maybe our father and put is in time out? who knowslol On earth...Right now i took a break from this paper im writing for english i wish english was writing your thoughts down i could go on pages about how life is so interesting and hard. Here is something that is going on in mylife right now.. i was in a moment when i was going through depression i didn't eat much but slept alot. cryed alot. and tryed on living.. but while i was in that stage lets just say i gained about 40 pounds. i will admit this on here how much a i weigh and will keep you up to do date what is going on.. i now am on weight watchers im sure majority of you know what that is so im not going to explain that. but i was at 140 lost a few pounds doing my own stuff.. and now i weighing my self in from tuesday 7am at 132.5 i just started it tuesday so we will see how much i weigh next tuesday at 7am. LIfe is difficult. i told my self 3 times today saying im going to stop this diet its killing me.. i am SOOO hungry! im working out about 30 min a day as well and drinking tons of water what can i say? im trying.i want to do this for me no one else is making me and no one else is saying things just for me to loose weight. im just not comfortable at all in my own skin. i feel fat like a cow and i go back and forth like a penguin! its desturbing.. i am a pants 9 i used to be a size 3. can u see the difference now. YEs i know sad. well leave some comments. if you can. Have a great weekend! ill let you know more in the future. take care=] later readers!