STeps

Everyday we go threw steps.

1. my steps are:
2. First is to wake up at 6:15am
3. second is to do 15 push ups and sit ups
4. Third to wash my face and teeth
5. Forth eat breakfest
6. Fith find something to wear
7. sixth out the door to school 7:15am
8. Seventh school 8 To 3..

Why do we live our lives so expected. we should live our lives like we don't know whats coming next. why have such a routine?my life i want to go as smoothly and less complicated.. Though my steps are changing when i get out of high school. i wount have such a routine as this. its going to be harder. And right now as much as im going through. its worse than it has ever been. And ofcorse i can't fix a thing about it. Being sad and confussed. no one to help me up from where i am at. i feel like im stuch in a place and there is no one here to tell me it will be okay. Bc see they don't kno if it will be okay. they say things to make me feel better at one point. Are our friends really friends are they going to help us the way we need to be helped. are there wise men and women to get us through our daily lives and tell us how it really will be. i know my life is changing and i need some one to help me daily to be who i need to be. later my fellow readers.. if there are?

Is

what do i do?

poem*
ive been laying in bed for days now,
trying to forget what had happend,
its not coming clear how?
i sit in the shower closing my eyes,
pretending that life will startover,
but all thats coming to me are these tears.
why can't i just be the one for you?

Larger than the earth

what is larger than the earth.. our hearts because everyday we can build relationships and friendships and its beyond it. our hearts is what exists from Heaven on to earth(here)... what is your heart serving? IS it Larger! or smaller than what you think it is? Serve your country. im going on a mission trip this week i leave tomorrow, and come back the wed. of 25th. ITs going to be exciting. i CAN'T WAIT! one thing i want you to do is look at nature all around u .. the animals and plants and trees.. look to see and what their purpose is. This picture has a 1000 words just look into the bird what does it portray? later googlers. have a fun spring break! God bless!

state to nationals! & friends

This weekend. i went to state. its called blast it was really fun i got to play football and volleyball. for volleyball we won and some of us will be going to nationals. which are next month. and football i played we lost but i got a stinger in my shoulder! its bad i can barely move my arm today when i woke up.. im taking care of it by meds so thats good, and for volleyball im not going there for nationals but i am going for soccer. so thats niice! im excited.. today im so sore though from all that exersize ive not been doing.. hahah but lifes good. tuesday im visiting joplin mo for college! so i hope thats just as fun as missouri state. then friday im going to mississippi so thats soon... umm my friends i love them dearly! Tamera is a great friend of mine we are having movie night tonight and ben the guy im still dating... ; ] we are hanging out later today! my doggys leg is really bad i have to pick her up to take her outside. well thats all i have later bloggers.

stressed out

so tonight is going to be intense! its volleyball and flag football. i hope it goes well im really tired i haven't got much sleep. i just found out about my brother going to be in a tank over seas and i woun't see him for a every long. i don't know what im going to do.. worrying is something im really good at.. and im worried for him even though i know hes a strong person though. But things that have been good is the guy im dating we are doing great, we have been dating for a month and like 2 weeks which is niiice! im very happy. schools stressfull because i have to have the right grades for college and the act in a month.. its hard to know that i have to be good enough for this stinkin world and i know God loves me no matter what but here its just not the answer everyone wants to hear. im going to mississippi in 2 like a week. on the 20th.. im going to be working my butt off! and then my birfday comes thats the 26th! don't forget people! haha my new nick name is beebee.. so if you want you can call me that.. ill know you read thiss if you call me that lol haha.. well i gots to go.. later bloggers! have a great week!

tv

So latly i havnt been watching tv i don't know why really besides hanging out with friends and have a busy life. but i honesty have been watching only because tonight i just relized its a large waste of my time. REALLY. it is a waste. maybe when you don't have anything to do its best to go exersize or do ur homework than watch tv. because trust me its hard to stop watching it after u turn it on.. its just a point to reality. Im glad we are having this conversation. now you know that i am a poistive person to talk to.. though some of you may hate me for just telling the truth.. sorry. but we need to know what we are up against. and thats satan!

Macon =]

The weekends are great! im in macon seeing all my buddies, then i get pulled over last night for my first ticket ever lol it was for not stoping at a stop sign long enough! its okay though everyone makes mistakes. i honesty am not a bad driver. haha this town its crazy but i love everyone here! my girl scharron im wit her at her house we be chillin here, and played some ball at the park today almost in the rain! and ive been hungry all day long! tomorrow the clocks go one hour ahead tomorrow which means we are going to loose our sleep so get to bed early kiddos! agh.. life is so interesting.. i visit missiouri state springfeild monday, kinda nervous but very excited to check it out! my mom goin wit me! =] but tomorrow we practice one more time before our tournatment for next weekend! volleyball, im so excited! well gots to go readers! Here is something to think about if you had to die and there were only to choices and the choices were to be frozen in a winter storm with your fingers falling off and your in a teeshirt and shorts... bear footed. and the other is to fall off a cliff very far down and when you fall your a dessart and your body is competly broken and you have to slowly die...so number 1 or number 2??

hate it.

i hate the music in shopin save it makes me nervous.

Happiness is a journey not a destination, love like youve never been hurt. =] me.

Different topics.

okay who would think that Asian food wood be like really nasty but good lol.. okay so today in foods 2 we had flowers that had Un-grown bananas in them it was interesting let me add. and the rice pudding was nasty. and the last one we had tried was very interesting that was the sugar stalks that was wonderful. Yesterday i had two hour practice of volleyball my legs hurt! today is soccer im the manager!! whaahoo! ha ha and another thing that is going on is that we are talking about losing our religion in youth which of us being stuck in our bubble of being christians... to be continued