New York/BRother.

I hope i don't fall in love with this city.

every year i go to a mission trip. one with my youth group/i love them dearly.

and also i did with my school, to build homes for people who lost everthing in katrina(mississippi)

we all need to think about how much we have.

we need to open our eyes, see what is infront of us.

i love reaching out to people.

so my brother comes home on the 3rd and i leave the 6th he leaves the 8th and then iraq down the road the 28th. but i only see him for those 2 days. cuz i go to college.. which upsets me bc that doesnt give me much time to be with him.

i love him to death. i hope he knows that

if i havnt said much about my love life yet lol.. i am dating a guy but sadly im going away to college so i don't kno how its gonna go..

even tho we aren't boyfriend and girlfriend it sure seems like one.

i miss him

i wish i get a job down there. bc of my brother im thinking about the rotc.. i don't know yet. i have thinking about it.

any imputs?

but anyways. talk to you in a week to tell you more about my trip in new york!

Is forgotten

no matter what i try to reach out.. no one understands i feel like im still in the same place where i was in when my friend randy died. im forgotten no one asks me how my day is any more. im always trying to help other peoples needs.


im just a dissappointment to everything/

The Future

I kno sometimes i may repeat my self but really. lol im so nervous about college more about meeting people..

this has nothing to do with what im talking about but i wanted to let u all kno that my dogs leg is broken and then her foot is smashed and we dont kno what to do .. should we put her to sleep for her?

im dating a guy.. new huh? lol hes nice just hopes this one stays with me for awhile.. but im afraid cuz im going to college. maybe i need to grow up and look at the whole picture..? but its hard to let someone go. even though u jus met them.

am i going to be able to handle this? life. in general. the summer is almost over my gosh it went fast.

in a week i go to ny.. im excited.. we are going to work with the homeless. this is my last year.. im sad. maybe ill get a wake up call.

life is pretty awsome i would never trade my close friends or family for anything..
my brother is going to iraq in a month.. im really worried. only for his safty im gonna miss him so much even tho he doesnt talk to me that much. its hard for me .. i never cry.. but when it comes to my brother. i get a teary eyed. ..

which reminds me.. i may go into the rotc if im tough enough lol.. i have no idea how i would do it.. im a fat butt lol.

just wish me luck.

and everything else
more to come..